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my name is whitney.

I got approved for a house!!! So stoked, i’m gonna have the best house on da block.
It has a pool, a freaking pool with included pool careAlso, it’s cheap!!!

Also, i’m loving my new job

Also, pool.

man, i wish we had the ability to get the fuck over ourselves.
i suppose it’s only natural to instinctively care more for yourself,
but i mean really, why does everything have to be so personal?
why are people depressed because they feel like they aren’t good enough?
why is it so easy to make excuses for yourself but hold others to higher standards?
think about the motivations behind everything you do
are you actually in love with that person or are you in love with how they make you feel?
everyone wants to be special, everyone wants

you don’t know anything

Free will. What a beautiful, yet torturous, concept. It seems like no matter how good your intentions are things will never quite match up. Everyone has their own path and is most concerned with where they are walking. Perhaps they’ll allow for some company along the journey, or perhaps will say all the things you want to hear… but at the end of the day we’re all going to different places. Different places with different mindsets. 

Although we all end up in the ground, but then what? Anything? Nothing? Sadly no one will ever be able to answer that. It’s just what you believe, what you think.

It’s just what you think.

sometimes i feel like my thoughts aren’t safe. i often feel like someone else is in my mind, listening and judging me.

I hate being confused. I hate not knowing what’s going on, but at the same time I love it. It’s so exciting having to guess what’s going on in your head, it’s interesting to explore my own. I can’t figure out what’s going on. But i’m going camping with some mushrooms to help clear my head.


Rising Sign is in 20 Degrees Scorpio
You tend to be quiet, reserved, secretive and, at times, quite difficult to understand. Others notice your deep emotions and feelings and wonder how to draw you out. Stubborn and tough, you fight for any position you believe in. You are very resourceful and formidable when you become angered or upset about something. You enjoy living life at the cutting edge — for you life must be experienced intensely and totally. Quite courageous, you are willing to take calculated risks. Easily hurt by others, you often strike back with bitter sarcasm. Sensitive and curious, you are concerned with the deeper mysteries of human psychology. Once you have become interested in any subject, you pursue it with total fanaticism.

Sun is in 27 Degrees Cancer.
Very emotional and sensitive, you have an intuitive understanding of the “vibes” around you. You tend to be quite generous, giving, loving and caring, but only when your own needs for emotional support, love and security have been met. If they are not met, you tend to withdraw into yourself and become very insecure and selfish. Your home and family (especially your mother or the person who played that role for you early on) represent security for you and thus assume a larger-than-life importance. Very sentimental, you have vivid and long- enduring memories of the past. No matter how well adjusted you are, you will always need a secret quiet place of your own in order to feel at peace. Feeding others can give you great pleasure you would enjoy being part of a large family.

Moon is in 01 Degrees Capricorn.
You are serious and shy and very uncomfortable in those situations where spontaneous and exuberant emotional reactions seem called for. An achiever, you prefer doing practical, worthwhile things that produce tangible results. You need role models to respect, love and emulate. You tend to feel that you’re a failure unless you get an important and highly respected position in life. Don’t be so hard on yourself! For you, practical needs always win out over emotional considerations. Remember that you too have the right to comfort, security and love. Dutiful and patient, when you make an emotional commitment, you sign on for the long haul — your love is long- enduring.

Mercury is in 07 Degrees Cancer.
Your emotions tend to rule your thought processes. You have difficulty seeing life objectively. You have an excellent memory, especially about things to which you have formed an emotional bond. You prefer ideas and thoughts that are known and familiar, and therefore tend to dislike fads or radical ideas. The beliefs and traditions of your family and culture are very important to you. Your thinking becomes quite unclear when you are emotionally shaken — try not to make major decisions when you are upset. Let things calm down first.

Venus is in 10 Degrees Virgo.
You express your love and affection through selfless service to people or causes. You have a tendency to underestimate yourself and doubt your self-worth. This is very demeaning and should be avoided — learn to love yourself as well as you do others. Your standards of perfection are very high — you are attracted to relationships based on duty and responsibility. You are supercritical of yourself and others and, at times, prefer to be alone rather than deal with any imperfections in yourself or in those with whom you might relate.

Mars is in 11 Degrees Gemini.
Your energies get turned on quickly whenever anything interests you. But you have a very short attention span and it is difficult for you to complete tasks because something else more interesting always seems to be beckoning. You love to debate and argue, usually in a spirit of friendly disagreement. But watch out that you do not get too overly aggressive or antagonistic or others will be quick to take offense where none may have really been intended. You need to be in constant physical motion — sports or daily exercise is a must for you if you are to feel fit and healthy.

Jupiter is in 05 Degrees Scorpio.
You love to dig deep beneath surface appearances in order to find out what is really happening. A persistent researcher, you are very interested in the psychology of any situation. You tend to become overwhelmed by the complexity of what you uncover, however, and that makes you a bit gun-shy about explaining things to others. But you must learn to try to communicate as best you can because what you know is really very valuable to others.

Saturn is in 11 Degrees Pisces.
Your tendency to think that your life is out of control is based on an unreasonable fear, probably connected with an unfortunate experience with the person who filled the father figure role in your early life. Learn to take responsibility here and now for your own life. Try to stop having unrealistic expectations about guide figures. Remember that they are merely human, with all the same faults and self-doubts that you have. When you get confused or uncertain, try to simplify your lifestyle — things will then become easier to bear.

Uranus is in 24 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your peer group as well, seek out practical solutions to a changing society’s attitudes to customs, traditions and authority structures. Your logical and orderly manner of dealing with these matters will result in permanent and carefully planned, but sweeping, reforms.

Neptune is in 21 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 25 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 21 Degrees Scorpio.
You have a special aptitude for working by yourself, or with a like-minded group of dedicated individuals. Once you’ve committed yourself to a person or group or project, your loyalty and devotion are total until the group’s goals have been realized. Not at all gregarious by nature, you’re uncomfortable around strangers, greatly preferring to be in known and familiar situations. Others may regard you as shy or eccentric, but those who know you well are aware of the intense loyalty that you have to your friends.

i didn’t even realize how perfect we could be, now i’m starting to see but i wonder what you think of me.

well fuck, that did not go as planned. not a good start to the year.

I AM UPSET

What is one thing you will never ever stand for?

the ignorance present in society is truly unsettling. how much longer can we continue living this way when the majority of the world walks around with their eyes shut? how can we allow such trivial, material possessions have so much control over our lives and happiness? people drive themselves mad trying to acquire these pieces of paper that some faceless group of men set value to. why don’t people start focusing on what they need and finding happiness. there is no reason to be stuck doing a job you dislike, there is no reason to succumb to this way of living. these character flaws are becoming engrained in us and only getting worse. i just don’t understand how people are more than ok to swallow the bullshit fed to us, and then they want to be spoon fed everything for the rest of their life.

This is the first Christmas without my dog, I almost cried when I saw her old stocking among the other Christmas decorations. Then I realized how many families in the world are experiencing their first Christmas without a loved one. My thoughts have gone to the family of my friend, AJ, who passed away in June. It would be a very hollow, sad Christmas. I can’t imagine what it would be like to no longer have to buy a Christmas present for my sister because she was dead. So during your time of celebration, please remember to count your blessings. Pray, send good thoughts, or whatever it is that you do to those that are suffering..

i feel like i am on the verge of something big. i don’t know what, and i don’t know how to explain it… but i’ve got this very excited feeling lately. is anyone else feeling this way?